crazy week done. epic summer begin.

So finals are finally over. YES. I think I might even be more stressed now that they are done and waiting grades then I was for studying them and actually taking them. Weird.

That's not the point though.

I am sitting here, 2:46 AM thinking about this summer. I am so nervous and excited and a whole bunch of adjectives I am sure I can't think of or spell right now. I want so badly to be impacted by this summer and to impact others. I want this summer to be glorifying to Him. I am praying for me to be open, listen, and learn.

REAL TALK. I have no idea how to prepare myself for this summer. I am hoping that by bringing whatever happens to land in my suitcase, my bible and a few other things, in addition to a heart ready to be transformed that my world can be rocked in ways I can't imagine. But I'm scared. Scared = shut off. Scared = closed off. NOT WHAT I WANT. So I am praying for my jitters to calm down... I seriously have no idea how I can feel so excited and blessed and happy to be doing something, but just as nervous and scared. SOOOO WEIRD.

I am sort of finding peace in the fact that I discussed earlier in the blog. That He has a plan for me and I am happy that I am able to see it. I also am taking comfort in the fact that this summer is a little uncomfortable. Confusing? I mean that I am glad that I am stretching myself in a way where I feel uncomfortable, I am happy and blessed to be moving forward in my walk with God and my life... even if its a little scary.

I think I am just babbling now, it's that awesome 2:54 am babble that the weird stuff starts to come out, so I better stop here.